Les grands nerveux sont les inquiets, ceux que l'angoisse terrasse ou enflamme, ceux qui ont fait de l'intranquillité leur moteur de vie, parfois certains mélancoliques.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
How those who produce works of genius don't spend their days--per Proust
Those who produce works of genius are not those who spend their days in the most refined company, whose conversation is the most brilliant, or whose culture is the broadest; they are those who have the ability to stop living for themselves and make a mirror of their personality, so that their lives, however nondescript they may be socially, or even in a way intellectually, are reflected in it. For genius lies in reflective power, and not in the intrinsic quality of the scene reflected.
–Marcel Proust, In the Shadow of Young Girls in Flower, translated by James Grieve, p, 129.
When I was younger, late thirties, I learned
that inside me was an inner circling sun
guarded by a dragon. The image stuck.
I’ve tamed the dragon, but no one else has.
It means I’ll be alone now. Odysseus
has left and returned many times, and yet
I remain alone. He could make one more
homecoming, but it seems unlikely.
Meantime, my spirit gathered up the four
corners of my archetype, like folding a
sheet and putting it away. It was a guide,
a series of stepping stones or street lights
I followed along a dark way, from one
pool of light to the next, learning to trust
what lay ahead when I had to walk blind,
one step at a time.
It is worth everything
to stand where I stand now. Even as darkness
grows more gloomy in the outer world,
where I once worked with so much passion
and energy, the light in my center burns
brighter, intensifies its swing around its
orbit. Can my written words help?
A black man I’d never met before,
working near me at the polling place,
says that if I write books, "We’ll read
them."
We don’t know how our words
will survive all the hazards of the
twenty-first century, when our human
race has yet to learn care for our planet
village or to imagine the inner landscapes
of people different from ourselves. A few
spirits who can see are all that is needed
to turn us from the weather disasters with
which our polluted air and sea begin
to punish us.
Poverty makes friendships
stronger. We still, sadly, learn the hard way,
a truth Sophocles knew centuries ago:
we have to suffer before we learn. Wiser,
we pay more attention to our inner Spirit’s
words and to the love our fellow beings
give us. Even dogs, cats, and chickens
sometimes can’t get through. Obliviousness
is not the worst crime, but it can damage
the love others bear us when we don’t
deserve it.
My path is clear now, and straight.
My all-too-human body has its twinges
and its doubts about all that I still plan
to accomplish, which is why that inner
sun must carry the workload and egg me on.
My greatness is an unknown, and yet I
feel it settle comfortably into the driver’s
seat, turn the key, and tell all the other
passengers: "We’re off."
Detaille - Le Rêve
Thursday, April 7, 2011
classic cuisine graced the guermantes salon
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
"But in the end, the stories I had heard at the Duchesse’s house, very different in this respect from the feelings aroused in me by the hawthorns or the taste of a madeleine, left me cold. Entering me for a moment and possessing me only physically, it was as though, being of a social, not an individual nature, they were anxious to escape."
That last sentence is what I find interesting. I wonder if Marcel is speaking of his muse here, saying that the things that are for him worthy of artistic effort are things of an individual nature, while those of a social nature are not worthy. When I read or hear poetry, I find that I tend to make this same sort of distinction. I “like” poems that are from the poet’s interior spaces; and I’m usually not as engaged by poems about external or social responses. (I emphasize “like” here; I’m not saying one’s better than the other.) For example, for me, W.S. Merwin’s and Robert Frost’s poems are “of an individual nature,” while Tony Hoagland’s are “of a social nature.” Reading Merwin or Frost is a powerful experience for me, whereas I don’t particularly like Hoagland’s poems. (Again, this is a personal preference. I’m not about to argue that Tony Hoagland isn’t a great poet!)
In trying to describe this distinction, I’m realizing that it’s a bit tricky. Merwin and Frost obviously write about things external to themselves, but what’s evoked in the poem is “individual.” Hoagland’s poems tend to evoke something social or collective. I wonder if this distinction is completely subjective, maybe just some unconscious prejudice, on my part. Does anyone have any thoughts?
Monday, March 28, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Here's news from a Celebrity Farm posting about Bonne Soiree, the French restaurant in Chapel Hill that we talked about as a prospect for a Proustian dinner out!
Some of you may be familiar with the Chapel Hill restaurant Bonne Soiree. To the sadness of anybody who has had the good fortune to enjoy their wonderful food and flawless service, chef/owners Chip Smith and Tina Vaughn have decided to close the restaurant on April 30th. The Independent published a very nice retrospective on Bonne Soiree, to which I can add very little. Tina has promised that wherever they end up, they'll find some way to get our goat cheese. (Years before they moved to Chapel Hill, they had a bistro at Kitty Hawk named Carolina Blue. Unbeknown st to us, Somehow our cheese was always on the menu, but I'd no idea how they got it there (Tina says that the wine truck brought)
Before Bonne Soiree opened, they hosted a dinner here at Celebrity Dairy. And, schedules permitting, they'll host a final dinner here after closing the restaurant. Probably our May 15th dinner.
I'm sad that alpha is followed by omega, but it will be a celebration you won't want to miss. I'll post confirming details about the sendoff dinner.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Paul César Helleu 1859-1927
Helleu ... moved among literary circles and became great friends with Marcel Proust who based the character of the painter Elstir in "A la recherche du temps perdu" on his friend. He requested Helleu do his portrait on his deathbed; and in 1922 Helleu obliged with a profile done in drypoint.
From a blog, source cited as Kay Lopata Fine Art web site (kaylopatafineart.com)